For a long time I have not dreamed, but last night I did and it was as powerful, as the ones I always had. My dreams are visions of something I need to see or events that will happen that I needed to pay attention to. Dreams for me was never just random, it ALWAYS had a message. It was either a past memory, warning about some earth event, or something to help me see something in my own life I needed to pay attention to.
So here it is:
It started with me hiking with 7 other people, it felt like it was for a long time. The scenery was a mix between America, Nelspruit, and the open planes of the Free State. We walked, but no-one really talked, there were a person in front of me, which was not really the leader but the front walker. I was just walking where they were walking not really paying attention to more than just being there and walking. We pitched camp and settled for the night around the fire, like every night. That morning I woke up and struggled to get up.
I said “That’s it my hip hurt too much, I am going back home.” The others looked at me in surprise. The one that is the fore walker asked “why?”
I just looked at him and said I don’t know why I am hiking anymore, we have been walking for over 3 months, I am worn out. This just doesn’t make any sense anymore.”
They looked at me baffled as I packed my backpack and walked into the trees.
Then the dream skips to me being home, healing my hip that was hurting real bad. One day the 7 friends came back with a map. The front walker opened the map on my table, pointing to a new path. He said “we can take this route” I looked at it and said “No there are huge lakes there; I am not in the mood for water hiking.”
“I think I have done enough walking…” I said. He looked at me and said, “You were tired, is it not time for a new direction?”
I looked at the map but found no real interest in it. Then he traced a pathway between the lakes on farm land saying “let’s hike here”
Me: “Mmmm…. I don’t know that is on cultivated land, land belonging to others. They might not take kindly that we walk their land.” He: “Well, we will tread silently and lightly, walking their land and helping if the need arises” I looked at them… “Please we need you to hike with us, it just is not the same without you.” They said.
I sighed… “FINE…..” and got up and packed my back pack.
We set out hiking through the farm land, treading lightly on other peoples land. Leaving it as we found it, or would mend stuff as we went. At one part we walked through a farmer’s vegetable garden, everything was neat. The front walker, that walked in front before was not walking there anymore he walked next to me now. Asking me where we should go next. We passed a patch of tomatoes, and he said “what is really strange way to plant tomatoes.” The fruit of the tomato was planted in the soil half way in and half way out the soil, this the tops cut off.
I said “Not really, the tomato rot and from that the seeds grow.” He looked at me strangely so I added. “When humans consume a lot of tomatoes, the seeds pass through their system. When they discard it the seed stay whole. I have seen how when the refuge is then added to a garden as fertiliser the first thing that rises from that is tomato plants.”
He looked at me and said, “That is strange indeed”. We continued hiking. After that I woke up and pondered over the dream, but ended up pushing it to the back of my mind.
Later I was talking to a friend and told him about the dream and as I did so I saw the message in the dream.
This is what I got form that:
Before I left for New York on holiday I was so tired and in pain. My path made no more sense to me anymore. I felt taped out tired, and was not even able to project properly. Even seeing was hard, I have reached past the human capacity of exhaustion. My will was gone and I felt that it’s not worth all this work. It just seemed to go on endlessly with no real point.
In New York I found rest, and for the first time in lifetimes real peace inside myself.
Coming back home was not what my soul wanted and it caused a bitch fight between body and soul, throwing me off balance once more. It opened issues that were locked till now and in the past week I was healing those, it did cause my hip to hurt real bad. More kidneys that hip, as it was emotional baggage and that always hit me in the kidneys.
The person that is the front walker is my spirit body or my higher self (if you will) It was time for my body to rest and catch up on all the changes made before I left on holiday. As always the body make a battle of it. This new path is the result of the changes I have made inside myself by working on myself and my past issues for the last 9 years. This year for me is the change of power so to speak. From the past to the now, the past was dealt with, the issues dealt with and cleared, old patterns were changed. I have cause the body a lot of pain, which has not always been appreciated.
Now in this new path it’s time to work as one not follow the higher anymore, but work as one, till the time come to truly become one in self. When there is no separation between Spiritual form and physical form. This time is a time of calm being of self, within and without. A stillness…
Yes stillness in this world is not always easy.
The tomatoes to me represent the human race, they are put through a lot (passing through the system) yet they still come out by growing where ever they land. Their tough and no matter what is thrown at them inside they have hope, it is the will in them that drive them to be more than they are. It is said that to grow you first have to die…
There are those that have wanted to destroy the human race, because they are useless. Yet in all that was thrown at the humans in the last 2000 years they have become more than what they were, when they were cast aside, and the angels fell.
There are many that fight for the preservation of this system, and many that fight against it.
I agree the system need to change to what it once was… before the fall of the angels, which was NOT right……
From the deepest despair and pain are born the strongest souls….. Aka quoted by me…
Standing with a map, seeing the path, knowing there is always a path, always a way… gives you hope that in the end it will all be as it must.
This time in , this place in time is powerful for each of us, we hold the power in our hand to change who we are going to be, and what paths we will walk. It is the change of power, form follower to leader of your own path, your own choices, no matter what anyone may say… it is not their path not their road to walk… it is yours and yours alone! This is the year, you become all you can be… within your own true power.