When I first found the Temple I was in a dark place. The depression was so intense it had taken over my life. My health had started to decline. My relationships were at an all-time low. My creative spark was gone. I struggled to meet my children’s basic needs, let alone their emotional ones. I became a recluse. Everything special and unique, everything that made up the very essence of my being had vanished. It was like I had died, but some dull empty thing was…Continue
I was going to write a blog about my life. But, I've decided to do a series of blogs. This way, it won't be ten miles long.
About ten years ago, we found out that our son had been molesting our daughter. He had been doing this for some time, and we didn't have a clue. The only reason we found out, was my daughter wrote an essay in health, where she mentioned, she wished she could stop having sex with her brother.
To say our whole world collapsed, was an…Continue
As I have stated in the past I am dealing with a lot. I realize that I can't change others. Wishing, wanting, hoping, and praying for change in others has not worked. In fact the more I want others to change their behavior towards me the worse it seems to get.
So I am changing small things in my own life. No more days of lounging in my pj's. No that is the first thing I am putting a stop to. I will get up, and get fully dressed. I will apply my makeup, and fix my hair. Such a silly…Continue
My eyes have seen to much heartache, My body has felt to many winters, My heart has felt to much disappointment. Cold has fractured this body. But the cold chill of winter, Does not linger forever, Spring will soon be here upon us, And like the spring flowers, I will grow and shine once again..
I don't give up. I am not a quitter. I am a fighter. I have had to fight to just be okay my whole life.I do not know how to just give in. I may not know how to stop the darkness, but I damn well won't lay down and let it take me. I am a survivor. I have survived a lot, but depression has plagued me as long as I remember. I was put on viibryd a few months ago. This drug was pretty much my last hope. It was supposed to be my miracle drug. The past few weeks my depression has started seeping…Continue
Air quality is one of the many things humanity takes for granted in their everyday life. Most are unaware of the health benefits of clean non-polluted air and do not know the proper procedures to take when examining the quality of the air one is surrounded with. Looking at the SCGH webpage and the different links on the American Lung Association webpage gives multiple ways of evaluating the air one breathes. There is a tab on the home page of the American Lung Association…Continue
Added by Zillah on April 13, 2014 at 1:41pm — No Comments
My entire world has changed because I have changed from the inside out. It began with guided meditations and I have been led to live life more peacefully. I have burned my bridges in the past believe me. My personal history, or the story of “me” has as much pain and heartache as the next guy. Iv done my fair share of damage in hurting people, lying, being deceitful, feeding my ego really. Fear of not being good enough, turned out to show as an external confidence I had. When in reality I was…Continue
Okay, here we go. I want to apologize for the previous entry and that was never meant to be taken out on this website - it was a bit childish but at the same time, it's sad that words can really push you over the edge... so please, do not do what I did. It was a mistake. I would like to share with this word with you...
Acknowledgement - I have sat on that word all day today and it didn't take me long to figure out the factors.
Had the urge to cut so I went and did it. Have not cut in a very long time. Got in a very deep and difficult argument that led to nearly tore me and my fiance apart. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired and I'm done. I've looked for help. I've had help but would that urge ever go away? It just takes a very long time to really push the temptation of hurting myself. I'm sorry but I'm just done. Sorry for such a negative entry. I just needed to vent.
Added by Kristina on April 4, 2013 at 9:44pm — No Comments
I never felt better in a long time. I used to have a group page that is contributed to someone I loved who passed away when she was 12 in the year of 2000 and Facebook was not created at the time; so that group page on Facebook that was meant to share for everyone but ever since Facebook changed for the first time back then, all of the people disappeared from the group and I decided I changed it to private, thinking people have truly forgotten the person that used to exist on planet Earth…Continue
Added by Kristina on April 1, 2013 at 12:04pm — No Comments
**I am writing this to myself.**
You may seem like you're fine on the outside. You're really not. You're on the journey to search for answers. Just know you're on the right track. But you can't keep up doing this. I know you're crying on the inside because you realized you're actually alone in the world, even you have friends that surround you from time to time and yet you still feel alone. You…Continue
Added by Kristina on March 14, 2013 at 9:11pm — No Comments
I am not quite sure where to post to say hello, so I'll do it here. I studied Wicca and other types of paganism for about 8 years. Then, I lost my direction. I went searching and thought, well maybe I should go back to where I was (Christianity). I have nothing against Christians, but it was obvious that I wasn't happy there. I wanted to recapture the comfort of my childhood, and it just wasn't possible, because I saw clearly how I didn't fit in.
Then I did the strangest thing. I…
Added by Athena Silvermusic on June 22, 2013 at 11:04am — No Comments
Bring forth to me the sky of being
a world of flow and strife
fall upon the eyes of love
to cleanse the scowl of hate
Clear does the call rise
on the noon of mine desire
set in stone of past…Continue
Deciding to take a break from all levels of existence have been good to me... There is nothing like healing self and remembering your path to inspire you to have hope again. For far too long I gave all I was to all that asked, and they turned out to be more greedy than what was good for me.
Being all you can be in service of other, does not mean you have to allow their greed to consume you. Having boundaries are healthy for personal growth, but does…
I had this idea a while ago, after writing something said by and animal totem that came close to me.
This is what the cards will look like, I now just have to design the symbols and writing that has to go on it.Continue