i have come because i want to learn, i want to expand my horizons. i was raised in a catholic home but from a very early age i was drawn into the occult and i am currently learning about wicca and would like advice and be around like minded people.
i have been misguided with the bible and christians who claim to love everyone..which is not the case i know from personal experience. the bible is full of violence and bloodshed ordered by a so called loving and merciful god? i have found lots of contadictions and i wish to know the truth.
to improve my life and my families life. i want to go back to college and study computers and hopefully get a good job so i can get out of this miserable life that i'm living right now. i also wish to become enlightened to become aware of my strengths and to gain knowledge
INCARNATIONS OF IMMORTALITY by piers anthony. Candleburning Rituals by raymond buckland. books by silver ravenwolf. wicca a year and a day by timothy roderick. books by spephen king. Chosen by denise swank, Caged Moon by rachel deagan. Sometimes there are monsters by J.T. Warren.
there are just too many!!!
Music I appreciate
i love rock/hard rock/heavy metal music. My favorite band is OUR LADY PEACE!! I love that band and the singer Raine Maida his voice is so unusual and its just awesome!! . i also like Mudvayne, Godsmack, Straight line Stitch, Three Days Grace,Dissturbed, Slipknot, Breaking Benjamin, Metallica, Flyleaf, Skillet, Emilie Autumn, Kutless, Avenged sevenfold, Otep, Kittie, Linkin Park, Static-X, Rob Zombie,Rammstien and a bunch of others..
Movies and TV shows I appreciate
Person of Interest, Grimm, Law & Order:SVU, The Voice, CSI (all of them) Hawaii five-o(the new one)Unforgettable,Criminal Minds, Once upon a Time, (these are all tv shows)
some movies that i like are: Insidious.,Ginger Snaps, Blade, X-men, Priest, Contagion, Transformers, 300, Thor,Paranormal activity, Teeth,Dolls,Hell Raiser, BloodRayne, The Punisher,Case 39..
and many more...
The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. For I, like (in the old legends of my past), was compelled to express our real feelings and not our pretended ones. This, of course, absolutely ruins the adaptation. In fact, I am not certain as to whether it does not rather give us away!Alas! we are only poor, weak, failing creatures!..Your broken-hearted, broken-winded, broken-kneed Sister...I WILL not bring abuse to point my pen,Think only what you might be,What might not hard starvation drive you to,But is it just, or grateful to the one here now that keeps even you from wrong,or even though he is humble to shriek, "Get you gone,for I am strong"?...Raven will re-set your wings and you will fly again you'll see ..stay close and listen intently feel where she's going to take you flow with her don't fight her or you'll be back right at the beginning where you didn't wish to be to begin with..listen to each video I send you Raven speaks through them in metaphor format all lessons to help you on your path,magick is a foot you will see it if you tune into me correctly for I am inside of you...Inlakech~Vlada~
Hi Ilda – Loving the Our Lady Peace tunes as the kind I grew up with through the 90s, always the best times with great messages in the songs. – I can relate to some of those stressful cutting days (so much noise in my head back then needing release) and would recommend using ice cubes for the same kind of feeling. Hope your doing well and know there are great friends here to chat with. ((hugs)) ~ Daniel
Hi Ilda, sorry for taking so long to respond to you, sometimes my health has me away for a week or more between site visits.
I'm so sorry to hear of your struggles with your son, it must worry & upset you a great deal. Many children explore & experience their sexuality at an early age. It's not abnormal or unusual for children to explore together & even become sexual. Of course it's a concern for disease and for pregnancy.
All you can do is your best, to love, listen to, & guide, your son. You cannot control his choices, but hopefully you can encourage him to make better choices.
Try to get as much help & support you can from school counseling or any other resources you might have available. I would look around for local parenting groups for support also. They are usually run by an experienced counselor who can help guide you in dealing with this, & other parents who can support you. If you cannot afford to pay for a class the instructor may let you participate for free if you explain your situation, & ask. They may refuse, but it can't hurt to ask. Explore, & call around, & try to see if you can find free or affordable counseling & support for yourself &/or for your son. It often helps, & can never hurt, you can always stop seeing someone or stop a group that turns out not to be working for you, but don't deal with this alone, if you don't have to.
Also the more positive structured activities you can get him involved in, the better. Whether it's a sport, art, science, game, cadets, martial arts, etc, anything, that is healthy & positive you can interest & involve him in will help move him in a good direction.
Be good & loving & kind to yourself, you are your sons primary role model, he picks up on your energy in part to guide him. If you are reckless with yourself... he will be reckless with himself. If you treat yourself with respect, he will treat himself with respect. I know it's hard.. life is difficult, for almost everyone. Struggle is universal, focus on the blessings & the good times & the good things, & on putting energy toward strengthening those.. and don't give up! You can do this.. I can feel your strength underneath your hurt & fear.
Hi Ilda, welcome to the Christianity group. Feel free, please, to post what you want, your opinions, etc. Just saw your comment, "the bible is full of violence and bloodshed ordered by a so called loving and merciful god? i have found lots of contadictions and i wish to know the truth" and thought I'd take a minute and add 2 cents worth. The "so called loving and merciful god" of the Bible is a reflection of the people whose lives are documented in the Bible. That is, instead of starting in the sky to the God they related to, start with the people. The same thing is actually true today, as seen by the ways we pick and choose from the Bible (or other existing sources) what we relate to. As to whatever contradictions there may be, it's simply that it came together as disparate writings, in large part having nothing to do with one another in terms of the people writing, their times, their experiences, etc. But if you study it you find there is a certain harmony, mostly because the compilers compiled writings of a certain content and character. It's just very helpful not to caricature in advance what it is or isn't, especially based on the uninformed opinions you might hear. ---- Anyway, welcome to the group!!!! -- DBKUNDALINI
Hi ilda, thanks for your kind comment on my profile & your compliments on my photo-artwork. I appreciate you taking the time to read & get to know me. :)
I'm not bitter at all for my circumstances, in many ways, I'm grateful. Sometimes you need to lose what you have in order to appreciate it. When I was younger I had depression, even though I had good physical health, I was overwhelmed with life, I didn't know how to emotionally navigate my life & the world. It has been something I've learned to do. Having become physically ill now, has been 'easy' compared to having been so depressed before. I've taught myself how to be 'happy' - once one has learned how to do that, how to operate ones own mind & emotions.. then the freedom & happiness from that is something that no one, or nothing, can take away.
It's not what happens to us, that makes us happy, or unhappy, but how we choose to think about.
It takes time for most people to get used to a new webspace and there is lots to see and do here! I recommend you take your time
and explore all the different areas of the Temple. If you have any
questions or concerns of any nature, please feel free to contact
me at any time or visit our Support Group for info & assistance. Live in Love ~ Leila Raven ~ The Temple
Hey ilda! Thank you for the compliments. :) I've just left the categories you can fill out empty and made my own by using the other field on the profile that allows you to use pictures and video embedding.
The second and third icon above the text field are for uploading pictures or embedding video or other (flash) content. For videos you have to go to the YouTube video you want to embed and use the code that can be displayed below the video. I think you have to click another button ("share"?) below the YT video window beforehand.