Wow, I can't even remember the last time I logged into TI. Sorry about that folks!!!
For most of this year I have been walking around with brain fog, and dealing with various "mystery illnesses" that all point to environmental sensitivities that have been playing pool with my immune system. I think the buzzword comment that I will take away from 2012 is "....but you don't look sick!!!" I've dealt with rashes, burning muscles, joint pain, and the world inside my head has been like a tornado of hyperactivity wrapped in cotton.
Years ago when I was in university, I worked in an ambulatory care clinic in Halifax. I used to watch patients go into one clinic as new patients with one problem and a razor thin chart, and then within a year, they had a truckload of problems and their chart was heavy enough to build muscle. I always prayed not to be that person and that is exactly what I became this year. The end result is that I spent a lot of time away from various places online and in person because when you're sick and your meds do weird things to you, you become a little strange in the process. I've pretty much spent this year going to work and coming home, and posting photos of cats on facebook :) Nothing I've tried to do has gathered any steam because I just don't seem to be able to work full time and have an intelligent online life, too.
I've also had to deal with a few people in my industry that I've worked closely with, including my current employer, who have proven themselves to be some of the most two-faced twisted bitches I've ever met, and this hasn't helped things. Its always good to make screenshots, bahahaha!!
I have come to the conclusion that I have to leave my industry, which is a sad thing, because I love being an esthetician but I can't even set foot into the salon anymore without breaking out into wall-shaking sneezes and headaches within the first 30 seconds. I've spent this summer slowly weaning myself off all this crap because I don't trust pills and I refuse to swallow, snort, and inhale things that come with pages and pages of warnings. In the process I discovered massage therapy,which proved to be invaluable for my muscles and joints, and resulted in a job offer to help manage the esthetics dept there. This place is dedicated to clients with my issues so the products are geared around this. We shall see. If I start to feel better there, I will be continuing with my plans to finish my Thai massage training. The owner of this place thinks it will be a good fit. I start there in September :)
I also discovered these nifty vegan meal replacement shakes and I've gotten a lot of energy back since I started having them. No, they're not Visalus - hahaha - I have also spent a lot of time this year hiding from all my girlfriends who have become ViBots :D
I am hoping to be able to dedicate more time to this group later in the fall. I make no promises, but I do think about this group all the time and I am still trying to find where the hell I put my Berkana write up :D
Sorry to hear you've not been well. I've only just come across this group, but I can kinda relate to how you're feeling. 2012 has knocked me about a bit already! Mentally as well as physically. As for two-faced people.. well.. they seem to be everywhere don't they. Maybe people are just showing their true colours this year.
People keep saying "You're looking well/much better".. when I really don't feel it! Hope you continue to improve on your meal replacement shakes.
P.s I shall be digging my Runes out later. Not done them in a while.. and this is the second time I've been reminded of them in a few days. I'm guessing it's a sign!