My entire life I was told I was "hypersensitive" and that I wore my emotions on my sleeve.I was always told I was bound for "greatness" whatever that meant I was told in my teenage years my saratonin in my brain was low and would have to be on anti depressants my entire life. I was also told I was manic depressant. My mother always told me my emotions were a sign of weakness and crying wasn't a strong trait. I don't watch movies, or tv, or the news. They get me emotionally distraught. I have always avoided large crowds, mainly because I felt out of "focus" or anxious. I didn't feel like me!
After years of going through the Psycho babble and having dr's put me on all kinds of medications to keep me from being so highly emotional I figured there was no hope. 4 years a go my husband committed suicide in front of me. That sent me in a tailspin like no other. For the past 4 years I have dealt with not only my emotions but my four children as well. This past week I had enough, I was done with life, I was so sick of everything and I was done. I didn't know what I was going to do but I knew I was done. I just wanted out. I couldn't find the good in humans, I only wanted to be around my animals. I have been telling everyone around me for months that i need to get to a body of water, because I need to be centered, that water always brought me back to rational thinking.
A couple of weeks ago I tweeted that I thought I might be an empath. I have always felt other peoples emotions, You know on those quizzes you get when you go for a job and they always ask if you can feel the emotions of others? i always put yes, because I could. So I thought well what the hell? maybe I am. And I left it at that. I hadn't been getting on my computer much lately because my depression had taken it's final grip on me. Then last night, I got a message on my phone saying an empath group started following me. So I started reading and I felt like I was reading my life story!! How could they know so much about me? And then I started to sob! I cried and cried because like a lightning bolt I found out what was "wrong" with me my entire life!!! Why now? Why when I am at the end of a very short rope did I find out that I'm an empath?
So now I'm armed with the knowledge that I'm an empath. Okay great! Now what? That's the reason for this post. I now know what I am, how do I help me heal and then help others? I'd like to know if I really need medicine and if I'm really depressed or is it all the emotions around me.
if anyone has guidance or can help me, I would greatly appreciate it! I have reached out to a few people that I know but no success yet. I am the only empath that I know.
Much love to you! You might also be a Highly Sensitive Person. Try this video for healing empathic pain
Thank you so much for posting this video! I was a thumb sucker until I was 8 years old! I used to curl my finger around my nose. My whole life is changing by the instant.
Thank you Kate! much,much love to you!
I am at a loss for words. I can really relate to the statement that our empathic skills come through the back of the neck. I was injured in a truck driving accident 10 years ago, and the part that was most effected was my 5th cervical vertebra. I have been unable to work since then, and I'm officially classifed by the federal government as being disabled. On the other hand, I was surpised to hear that being an empath is a dysfunction. I was told that empaths are born with the skill of empathy, and our role is to bring healing to other people. I'm getting contradictory information about being an empath, and I don't know which one is right.
I can't help you, but I'm just so happy that I'm not alone.. Reading your story was like reading my own. Medication after medication, doctor after doctor. Thank you, and I mean THANK YOU for sharing this story. I just found out about all of this yesterday, and like you, i'm just happy I know what it is, and happy to know there is a reason why I am the way that I am. I just haven't decided if its a curse or a good thing..
Would love to chat more if you're up for it. It helps me knowing that I'm not the only one..
First and foremost, let me commend you for your strength. Most all who relate heavily as empaths have experienced some challenging life circumstances, but the fact that you have kept your head up after experiencing all of that is something that everyone can look up to. Your story alone will set an example for those who have started to lose hope. It proves that anything is possible and that everyone can overcome. Thank you for laying your heart out on the table for us.
The positivity you pushed while writing parts of this had to be refreshing for you as well. Many of us know exactly what it feels like to be the outcasts or the misunderstood. While most of us have strong levels of rebellion embedded in us along with a need to always be our own individuals, a simple feeling of belonging had to provide some well deserved relief!
Your words project tremendous amounts of emotion and you will learn how to use that to your advantage. Balance, however, is key and proper grounding will help you achieve that. On a personal note, I can very much relate to your water reference. For me, there is nothing more serene than the ocean. The sounds, smells, and the general atmosphere have a unique way of drawing out the negative and washing it away for good. You already know what makes you feel better, so I’d suggest taking advantage of that. We all need time to decompress and the best places are the areas we love the most! They are our caves, our escapes, and our own personal sanctuaries.
From a spiritual perspective, consider writing more. You release a lot that way. It allows you to let go of those pent up emotions, learn more about yourself, and absolutely does help others in the process. Share your stories, your life, or anything else that inspires you.
In regards to your question, I am not qualified to provide any medical advice, but if there are concerns on your part and you feel it may be a good choice for you, then I would definitely suggest seeking that type of advice as well. The benefit to obtaining both medical and spiritual opinions is that it offers you alternatives so that you can make an educated decision that fits you best. In my opinion, the more opinions the better! What matters most is that you find a way to be completely content with self. It's all about taking everything one step at a time.
Thank you again for posting here and welcome! I'll look forward to hearing more.
Thank you for responding! I feel like I'm on a wild roller coaster ride. For years I never understood why I was the way I am. Now it's like a beacon of light has found me. I can't describe it!
I am working on the meditation. I'm sure I will be working on that for years. I found myself knowing when someones energy was trying to get to me at work today, and I was able to imagine my self wrapped in a fluffy blanket to keep me protected from these "wandering" emotions.
I am so blessed with the warm responses that I have gotten from here.
I think that Empaths are on a continuous path of evolvement and growth at a more rapid speed than most. I myself have been told I was always too emotional, hypertensive, had low serotonin levels, clinically and chronically depressed, too sensitive, anxious, put on anti-depressants. and was even told by clergy that I was "too compassionate".
Think we tend to have what seems to be a harder life than most because we feeeeel everything even which is not ours. I have not lived what I think is an easy life and the traumatic phases seemed to make me even more sensitive (and there has been quite a few). In short, I know your pain and confusion, so I can relate, but I certainly don't have definitive answers for your situation, BUT at the same time, think that's key. !!Question everything!!! and try different avenues that will allow you to feel comfortable in your own skin and be your true self. When you're an empath, the Universe never seems to cease at showing you countless opportunities by which to grow. What I've learned very recently that I think is important is to learn to pick your battles and when it’s time to retreat from "saving the world" retreat, retreat...retreat.
And check in on this site often. It has helped me during a "dark" time tremendously in just a few weeks! :)