i really need some help, some advice, something! :)
well, i have been on the shamanic path for almost two years... and i am getting a lot of upheaval...
perhaps what really gets me is the fear and anxiety. fear of death, fear of separation from my wife and children, doubt that all i know and have achieved will not save me. the feeling of powerlessness.
the fear of having dark entities waiting for me "on the other side"... and having to fight them here on the astral plane...
i do use some techniques i have learned and they work, but it seems different, the confidence is not all there like it used to be... i have been calling Archangels, my Otorongo, Masters, and Teachers to help me. it works wonderfully, but this everlasting state of unease seems to come back time and again.
so, pointers, help, assistance will be GREATLY appreciated.
Love and Light
If you are that uneasy, I would suggest you try to find some time to relax and meditate.
it's ok to be afraid. fear is a test, and the important thing is to stay calm. our biological urges are "fight or flight" but we also have the option to not do anything at all.
why would dark entities want anything to do with you? where are they coming from? many "demons" are our own creations.
if you've called for all the help that you can, and you are still facing these issues, then perhaps it is something necessary for your personal growth. trust in yourself, trust in the universe. if you panic, then you've already given up self control.
maybe this is a point of initiation for you, and in order to to receive the help that you ask for, you must kiss the gatekeeper, which is fear
i hope this helps, or gives you another way of looking at the situation